the good news is...

I'm off work for two weeks! I just got a checking account and my very own checks and I'm getting a checking card that will work just like a credit card (scary, if you've ever been shopping with me) except that it won't work when no money is left (whew.) I'm having a great party on August 12th! Purdue just gave me a bunch of money!

So yeah, good stuff is happening to me. I've been kind of melancholy the last few days anyway tho...I got a cold which really stinks in the summer. And I'm going to miss work, even though I was very ready for it to be over. And even though I'm really excited about Purdue, I am not excited at all about leaving all my friends. Well, most of them anyway. Sniff, sniff (add cough and blow your nose, if you're me right now).

I guess it's called growing up. I alternate between loving it and hating it. But no matter how I feel about it, it's happening, so I shall just have to try to make the best of it.

random lists

I can't think of anything to write about, so I just decided to make some random lists. I am definately a list-maker. Embarrassing secret (that is no longer a secret, obviously!): I make to-do lists. Like, "To do on Friday: Finish Physics, edit Eng. Comp paper, call so-and-so about such-and-such an event, do more such and such homework, etc." As you can see, I pretty much only do it during the school year. And half the time I end them with, "Be happy!" because otherwise I might forget when I am overwhelmed by all that academic stuff. So, here are some summertime lists:

Reasons to praise God...
~I'm alive!

~I have great friends!! some of which even go to boring tennis matches with me so we can sit around and eat free goldfish (crackers, not the animals)

~my kitty cat is the best in the entire world (except when she pees on Bekah's bed, but she has promised me never to do that again)

~I'm going to what I firmly believe is the best interior design school in the state in a matter of weeks

~what I think will be the last horrible interview at work is over, and it wasn't all that bad (thank you to anyone who prayed about it!)


Movies I liked that I didn't think I'd like:
~Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
~Phantom of the Opera
~uh, that's all I can think of right now...I don't go to movies much, plus it's more likely that I think I will like them but don't (like "Batman Begins")


Things I wish I were doing instead of sitting on a chair trying to think of another
list to make:

~riding a horse or a rollercoaster or a motorcycle

~sleeping...maybe...depending on if I want to be on time to work tomorrow or not...

~running in the rain. not for long. I love to run but only a few blocks at a time,
because let's face it, I am not in the best of shape.

~eating more peanut butter cookie dough ice cream, except I know I have had enough and it will come back to haunt me if I get it out again

~reading other more interesting posts on other people's blogs.


I guess I have run out of interest. Such a short attention span. Oh, I'm thinking of having a party (like a big fun one!) on August 12th, so don't make any plans! If I know you well enough to know your name, you're invited. Sound good?

more horsey stuff, can you believe it??

I am an extremely horsey mood. I am just warning you, in case any of my readers happen to be tired of my frequent equine remarks... Today was a really good day. I had a nice ride, it was nice weather (not hot and lots of misty rain that's really fun to walk around in!), there weren't an overbearing amount of riders (probably due to the lovely misty rain), and I even got to ride a pony! After we had unsaddled everyone, Amber took her horse Denny out to the grassy spot so he could eat some (because she spoils him rotten) and I didn't want to just sit out there without a horse too, but they were all turned out so I went and got this fat little white pony. When I was going to put him back in his lot with all his adorable little pony friends, I got Sarah (who works there also) to lead him so I could sit on him bareback. It was fun but I wouldn't do it all the time on account of my feet being only a foot off the ground, which would indicate that it probably was not too comfy for the poor guy.

I warned you that this would be horsey!

Other than all that, nothing of note has happened lately... Some of you might know that work has been a bit rough for me--certain days more than "a bit"-- due to a, shall we call it "incident" that is supposed to remain confidential. Well, I am all tangled up in it even though I didn't do it, but I still have had to endure multiple meetings with my bosses as well as questioning from a guy from the Child Protection Services. He asked me flat out if I did it. Twice!! It was very uncomfortable. I'm pretty sure, however, that my boss trusts me because I still have a job. And she hasn't placed any restrictions on me, so that's also good. You can pray though, that all of this gets cleared up. It's no fun whatsoever. And since the CPS is involved it will probably take forevvvverrr to be straightened out. OK, Sara, be optimistic. Maybe tomorrow I will go to work and everything will be normal and my boss will give me another raise! Yeah, there we go. Except the raise part is highly unlikely, considering people above me get as much as I do.

Love to you all, don't forget to comment because it will make your friend Sara really happy when the horsey euphoria wears off, and have a great week! What's left of it anyhow!!

roads of life

I wrote this a couple days ago...

I like turning the key and hearing the engine roar. I like deciding when to switch gears or switch lanes or switch radio stations. And I dearly love steering up the curvy portion of Spring Mill at 40 mph. Never mind that the speed limit is 25 right there...

So basically, that's how I like my life to work. I like to feel the car swerve when I jerk the steering wheel. But lately I haven't felt that level of control. It's like I keep turning the key but the engine refuses to start. Then it starts, but it's going backwards. Straight at a cliff. See what I mean? Not very fun.

I have this devotional book I got from Mr. Baumer at graduation. I started it but lately I haven't read it at all, probably because I subconsiously decided I didn't need it. All the lessons are very simple, like "pray for your enemies" and "don't just talk the walk, live the walk". Stuff I already knew. Well, today's was about patience. How our lives are run by God, on His plan, on His timetable.

I guess I need the book after all, because I finally figured out why my car is going backwards. It's because God is running my car. If it turns on when I turn the key, it's because God let it. If it doesn't, it's because God knows something better for me. I still don't know why my car is going backwards, but God has a reason. Maybe falling off a cliff would be good for me?

So that's what was going through my head one day... Today I don't feel quite so pessimistic. I think God decided that I really don't need to fall off a cliff, so He put my car in forward and I'm going down a slightly bumpy country road. In the sunshine, however. And who knows, there might be a horse around the next bend!!

I know some of my friends are on worse roads than others...and you feel like you lost your roadmap...but remember, God is the one in charge! You might be in the driver's seat but God directs your car, ahem, your life.

Another Episode in the Life of Sara

Last night I went and saw "Batman Begins" with Julie. It was OK. I think I am more into Spiderman though. Spiderman is a very likable character. Batman is dark and isn't wholly good. I have to admit though, that I if I knew them personally (assuming they exist...), I would probably be more into Batman because he's more mysterious and interesting while Spiderman is like the nice guy next door. Which is what he is supposed to be anyway. Anyway, my list of future cars has now been amended:

Corvette--convertible, unsure about color, probably I will just get several
Mazda Miata--dark silver
Batmobile

The Miata isn't very practical though, because you can only have one friend with you at a time, and if you like massive shopping trips, there's not much trunk room. I might also need a metallic dark blue Jeep. Yeah, I think I might as well go ahead and get one of those while I'm at it.

Well, you all have a great Fourth of July weekend!! Another update will surely appear sometime....